Breakdown

Hi guys it's me Ava something just happened today that I'm so happy fianlly happened.

     At around 10 I was bored I went outside to play basketball ten minutes later I come back inside crying I was saying all this stuff that wasn't true then my mom was probably wondering why I was upset then I went outside thought for a minute came back inside and I said "here is why I'm upset I want the surgery on July 14 to be over already. I cried and let out all my feelings and I also said that I'm trying to keep my self busy from keeping that surgery thought away. Then I called up one of my old nurses that I wanted to make plans with on Saturday and we are going out this Saturday with her 2 grandkids.While I was calling Jayne who is the one I'm going out with Saturday im crying I can't say a word she thought we got disconnected and was considered why I was crying then all the sudden she said I'm getting dressed and coming over. It was strange because it's a weekday and it was an hour before she had to go to work. So 20 minutes later Jayne  comes over and she saids "what's wrong" then my mom saids "well we talked about our problems and how we need a new routine for the summer" since school and work are over we have to keep ourself busy that goes for my mom to. So we're going to think about what to do to keep ourself busy. So Jayne came and she asked if I was better and I was all the emotion just came out of my body that I held in for 2+ months. That breakdown felt good. So my mom and Jayne and I discussed what could have accused to make that breakdown from happen here's how it happen
.I had a pre op
.i just finished my last day of karate for 6 weeks until my surgery process is over.

I just want my poconos vacation to happen to keep myself busy only 7 more days.

I just have a lot of mixed emotions with the surgery and just want the surgery to be over with.

That breakdown felt good and is something that everyone needed every once and a while.

From Awesome AVA